*blows on cobwebbed blog*
hehe. its been so long mashaAllah..
the last entry was about my first 3 months being pregnant, and now my lil guy is 3 months old!:)
Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal..
I'm so blessed with Yousuf. Everyday i fall in love deeper and deeper with this lil hero of mine. Its weird going to uni without him. He used to accompany me all the time, but now he has to stay home. and mashaAllah, he occupies my mind mann, when im at uni!
As Allah brings me through this journey of mother hood, I am reminded of my very own dear mother...
(31:21) and We have enjoined on men to be dutiful and good to their parents. His mother bore him weakness and hardship and upon weakness and hardship.
There are so many verses and hadith that make mention about the importance of honouring our moms. And after going through labour and just a few months with him, Allah knows how much I hope that Allah will endear me to Yousuf's heart.
It was Saturday. I slowly felt the contractions coming but still being bearable I decided to finish reading Surah Maryam.. By verse 22, I just had to stop. The pain was getting a bit too much..
(Maryam:23) And the pains of childbirth drove her (Maryan AS) to the trunk of a date palm. She said: "Would that I had I died before this and had been forgotten and out of sight
The pain drove me to the Royal Women's Hospital. I could barely walk, my contractions then were already frequent, and was clinging dearly on to my husband, depending on him every step as we walked to the labour ward. I felt weak as I have not yet taken my breakfast that morning.
(Maryam:23) And shake the trunk of the date palm towards you, it well let fall fresh ripe date palms upon you
There was no date palms in the labour ward unfortunately, but there was my husband. He remembered how rasulullah would chew on dates and feed the sick with his mouth and did exactly that for me. I refused the first time he offered me. I mean, really, try eat while having contractions!
But he insisted.
Wanting to please and obey my husband badly (having in mind at that time the advice of one of my sisters who told me that it's ever so important to consistently seek forgiveness from our husbands and it is his redha that insyaAllah Allah will make ease the labour), he fed me. Suprisingly, I could gulp it down easily and mashaAllah, I it was just one date but I swear I felt that strong powerful surge of energy, making me feel more prepared to face the next contraction (lesson learnt: sila taat suami.hehe)
My waters broke during a really strong contraction. Not long after that I was pushing and Subhanallah, I heard the cry:')
By Allah, it was the most beautiful sound i've ever heard!
The midwives quickly put him on my chest.
I looked into my baby's eyes and he looked into mine.
Oh mashaAllah, the feeling was just undescribable!
The doctors were busy stitching up and doing stuff but my eyes were only on this lil baby of mine..
My husband was whispering to me, "anak kita, sayang" and till today my tears still swell up in my eyes as I remember those words of his..
My husband made the azaan in Yousuf's ears and he stopped crying and listened attentively to my husband till the very end.
It was enough to start the water works again..
ya Allah make him lil muttaqeena imaama..
ya Allah, make him among those who say,
(Maryam:30-33) Verily I am a slave of Allah..
And He has made me blessed wheresoever I be, and has enjoined on me salat and zakat as long as I live
And dutiful to my mother, and made me not arrogant, unblessed
And Salam (peace) be upon the day I was born and the day I die and the day I shall be raised alive
I love you, sweetheart:)